One YEAR Ago
TODAY
Giving THANKS
Thanking
The gods
The heavens
The Universe
ALL
That led
Me
HERE
Ohhh…
Nashville
HERE
I AM
Alive
As NEVER Before
After
1 Year
Of
LIVING
And
LOVING
At Depths
I Never
IMAGINED
I Didn’t
KNOW
Existed
This DREAM
Life
IS
Known
To Me
As
I stand
HERE
Wide AWAKE
WOW!
WOW!
WOW!
My Cup
RUNNETH
Over
My HEART
Is
FULL
Spilling
Into
The HEART
Of
This WORLD
Nourished
By
This NEW
New Lifetime
Within
My LIFETIME
The PERSON
Who Pulled
Away
From
Brownsburg, Indiana
Leaving
A DREAM
That was LIVED
Is NOT
The PERSON
I am
NOW
The PERSON
Who Arrived
HERE
One Year Ago
Is NOT
Who I AM
Now
I AM
More
MORE
Than I Dared
To KNOW
I could BE
Amazing GRACE
Showers
ME
All the MOMENTS
Of
My Life
As I LIVE
Open
Flowing
And
THIS
Ohhh…
YES!
This Energy
Of
LOVE
Universal LOVE
BIG Love
Is
What
MAKES
Me
My Life
This Journey
RICH
A Celebration
INDEED
Where
I HAPPYass
DANCE
All Day
Every Day
My STORY:
And she LIVES
She LIVES
She LIVES
HAPPILY
For
No Reason
And
A MILLION
Magnificent
Glorious
REASONS
Because
Living
FEELS
Damn GOOD
FREEING
The Passion
ALL
This LOVE
This LOVE
Yesss…
THIS LOVE
That LIES
Within
ME
That came
HERE
To LIVE
To EXPRESS
Silently
A Vibrational
Hum
LOUDLY
Shouting
OUT
Joy
Echoing
From
The Essence
Of
ALL
That I AM
ALL
We ARE
Connected
I KNOW
You
I KNOW
The Whole
Of
CREATION
Pulsing
Through ME
My Breath
MAGICALLY
MYSTICALLY
I Dance
UNCENSORED
And
Invite
YOU
To Take
My HANDS
Join ME
In
This LIBERATION
THE CELEBRATION
Life IS
1 Year Ago
TODAY
How could I have
known?
The BEAUTY
The Bliss
The MIRACLES
I now
LIVE
Each Day
Simply BEING
Kathy
The Roles
Of
YESTERDAY
Lived
Done
Gone
Who I AM
Now
This Day
Will BE
REVEALED
Surprise!
Surprise!
Surprise!
Continues
To BE
My life
Mantra
I still
GO OUT
On
My 16th
Floor
PERCH
Stand
On My Balcony
And
GREET
Nashville
Each Morning
Saying
THANK YOU!
THANK YOU!
THANK YOU!
For
Welcoming
ME
For
Inspiring
ME
For
Resurrecting
ME
For
LOVING
Me
As the Sun
RISES
I hold
My HEART
Ahhhing
This ECSTASY
SO DIVINE
Delighting
Whispering
Without
WORDS
Let’s PLAY
Let’s SING
Let’s LOVE
As
NEVER
Before
No Waiting
On
SOMEDAY
No Delaying
This MOMENT
This DAY
Is
EVERYTHING.
Below is my Blog
written my first morning in Nashville…
I am here.
Here I am in my new
home.
New sounds.
New smells.
New sights.
New views.
New experiences.
It is all good!
As I sit on my balcony legs propped with a giant mug of
coffee in tow, a candle lit as part of my morning ritual, I give thanks for my
life. I feel so alive as I lean into the
newness of everything: the sounds, the
smells, the sights, the views. This is 180
degrees different than my life out in the country yet it is a seemless
transition, no kicking or floundering as I ease into each moment. Laughter is my reaction to exploring all the
unknowns as I delight in my willingness to simply be.
I found my assigned parking space. Check!
But then couldn’t figure out how to access my condo. After searching, walking up and down flights
of stairs, I found my way to the ground floor and navigated my way home. As I hopped on the elevator giggling at
myself, my new neighbor joined in the fun, matching my stories with her first
week living here. I didn’t know not
knowing could be so damn fun.
The movers, Rick and Brian, who work for my friend,
MikeyO were so laid back and willing to do whatever needed to be done brought
such joy to the day. They found out
while grabbing a sandwich at Subway that Hulk Hogan’s daughter lives in my
condo building so they wondered out loud if he might come and help us unload. While assembling my bed and headboard there
were missing pieces but they didn’t sweat it like I would have, they used their
genius and finagled this and that to secure it.
All that came to mind throughout the day was Thank
you! Thank you! Thank you! Moving day is probably among the top 5 most
stressful days for most but everything was easy. This is right in line with my intention to
make my life easy and it was evidence that it can be. How wondrous life is.
After making up my bed with all my new bedding which
was the one thing I wanted to do by the end of the day, I showered to head out
and meet friends for a welcome to Nashville dinner. I had had only a few hours of sleep the night
before but rode this wave of excitement, the energy found in the newness. As I walked down the street, I found myself
smirking with a sense of Here I am. The
surefootedness with each step, the groundedness that I felt throughout my
entire being let me know I was home. I
rested in this.
Dinner was filled with silly bantering as we caught up: Hey Girl this, Hey Girl that; and the sharing
of ideas, thoughts as well as celebrating where each of us is at this point on
our grand adventure. We paused to
recognize that we are living the dream because we are living a life that is
true to who we are, where we are and this made us tear with deep
gratitude. The journey is the reward and
for that moment, that capsule of time, we knew this with every fiber of our
being.
Arriving home around midnight Indy time, I had been up
almost 24 hours but rolled with where I was asking What now? I lit a candle and headed out to my balcony
with a bottle of water, propped by feet onto my bistro table and soaked up the
new view. Nashville was lit with a
vibrancy that was beyond the lights.
There was live music coming from the restaurant at street level that was
the perfect back drop.
I climbed my weary bones into my bed fit for a queen
and just as I started to drift into sleep state, my kitty, Beauty began to wail
this dog-like howl that I have never heard before. I tried to soothe her with my words, my
energy, my touch but she could not be consoled so I leaned into it with her. I found myself even thankful for her
expression of grief and sadness for all we have left behind, for all we have
been through to arrive in our new home, our new life. There were growing pains that she needed to
let out so I let her.
Even when everything lines up beautifully and there is
excitement for what is and what is to be, there are bumps that jolt us, there
are painful longings, and there are feelings to the contrast. It is all good! This I know.
