What keeps gratitude at bay
Is our inability to see the good in what is
What has come forward
Withholding our appreciation for life
Until things go our way
Unfold as we believe they should
Allowing our idealism to hold us hostage
Instead of inspire a new vision for what is possible
While being present to what “is”
Letting it inform our lives
Shining a spotlight on what we need to let go of
In order to free us
So the more we long for can flow through
To want things to be different
Other than they are
To choose to find a way to let go
To accept what is
Releases the tension of the opposites
And this is divine
Tapping into our higher wisdom
Bringing us into present time
Through the integration
Of past, present and future
In the infinity of life
Carrying an abiding THANK YOU! in our heart
As we see clearly
It ALL led us here.
We are unaware, often unconscious of our resistance, our part in keeping the life we desire from coming to be. Knowing this, we must have compassion for our Self and for others on this human journey. Each of us knows what we know and our depth of knowing increases day by day until our last breath. No one consciously chooses the shitty things that life brings and I believe with all of my heart that we can’t keep the pain of life away no matter how conscious we are. Pain is as essential as joy.
All of us have had our asses handed to us in one way or another. The betrayals and violations from the past threaten to hijack our now if we let them, if we don’t recognize that we need to acknowledge and grieve them in order to untether our Self and energy from them. I have said for years that you have to start with Fu%# it! Fu#% this! Fu#% that in order to get to Bless it! Bless this! Bless that! So when I live with an abiding THANK YOU! in my heart now it has only been made possible through going there where I didn’t want to go and avoided for years. This abiding thank you! has been birthed from allowing my Self to go into the raw, untamed, wild, not politically correct, truth of my emotions around events that have shattered me and broken my heart. Pretending it’s all good! saying this or other platitudes while repressing and denying the wounds that bind us keeps the abundance, the pure goodness of life from flowing through us and manifesting in the material world.
If we are less than grateful for the gift of this life, we must examine, shine a light on what beliefs, what attitudes, what things we have avoided that rob us from the aliveness available. Each moment informs bringing opportunities to see how our choices, attitudes and beliefs create the life we live. Staying tuned in, be willing to look at your part, own your choices without judgment as this will empower you to see that you are the captain of your ship and this is indeed your life. You can navigate your life asleep at the wheel or with eyes wide open, navigating whatever comes, knowing you can find a way to get where you want to go. You can lock life out, shutting off the flow, believing that you are a victim of life’s unfairness or you can become the victor, the hero in your own story.
The invitation this day is to pause and take inventory, appreciating your Self – all that you are and own the gift that is you. Writing it out is a grounding practice and allows you to reread it sipping in all that you are and reading again and again when you forget. From this place of thanksgiving, seeing how wonderful it is to be you and what a privilege it is to journey this life as you, you will appreciate others and life at a depth unparalleled. You will carry an abiding thank you! in your heart not denying the crappy things or wallowing them rather accepting what comes and looking for what it has to show you and teach you in order to free more of you to come out and play.