So afraid of being
burned
We neglect the fire
within
That longs to
explore
To break out of the
rut
To do something
different – anything!
To blaze a trail
Spontaneously
connecting to our Self
To others
Grabbing hands
Swinging our arms
Twirling around and
around
Feeling dizzy
Euphoric from the
play
Filled with delight
As all we held back
Shoots through our
body and beyond
We are alive
As never before
Barely recognizable
In the glow of Joy
Beauty revealed
In an honest moment
Living the Truth
Of all that lies
within.
This
morning still in the waking up process and not in my rituals, I walked over
without a thought to my desk where I have a silver music box engraved with Passing On Hope …Courage, Strength, Hope,
Joy. This was a gift from my dear
friend, Diane, in honor of the completion of my book. I twisted the star wand sticking up on top and Somewhere Over the Rainbow began to
play. This song more than any song
touches the depths of me, reminds me that I am a soul expressing as Kathy; and
when I return home to this Truth, to my Self, life is magical and I am on fire
transported beyond the mind’s chatter that can hold me and the beauty that is captive if I let it.
My
mom used to threaten to run away screaming at the tops of her lungs like a wild
woman on the edge, wanting to break free, perpetually disappointed by life,
overwhelmed by circumstances, but she didn’t have the choices that I have so
she was forced swallow the Truth and repress the fire inside. Observing my mom, I knew she was showing me
the ghost of Christmas future – who I would become if I denied my Self the
freedom available to me. I have great
compassion for my mom who felt this tug of war within but had to find a way to
survive it. She loved my fire as our
relationship became woman to woman and delighted in the freedom I lived.
We
hear tales every day of men and women gone
mad who run away from their lives, their families, their friends cutting
their Self loose from all they believe kept them from freedom. Starved to touch the fire inside, to come
alive, they strike a match and watch the old life go up in flames as they
recklessly ride away into the horizon, making their great escape. But they fail to understand that they are
taking their Self with them and all the beliefs that repressed the fire, the
depth of experience they long to explore. True freedom is an inside job.
We
do not have to derail our lives through repression or escape doing something
drastic in order to free our Self. Acknowledging
that we are afraid to be burned by life, by others, we can connect with our
Self honestly and face the fear consciously, allowing it to inform us so we can
make different choices and give our Self what we need.
The
invitation this day is to honor the fire inside. Let it burn brightly so it doesn’t burn
you. There is a home within where you
can rest in the passion, the beauty, the joy, the grace, the peace that fuels
your life like nothing else can. Touch
the depths of your Self. Smile from the
inside out, acknowledging that you are a soul on fire expressing uniquely as
YOU. Love your life. Free your Joy. You are limitless potential hatching until
your last breath.
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