What keeps
gratitude at bay
Is our inability to
see the good in what is
What has come
forward
Withholding our
appreciation for life
Until things go our
way
Unfold as we
believe they should
Closed off
Shut down
Fist clenched
Stubbornly locked
Allowing our
idealism to hold us hostage
Instead of inspire
a new vision for what is possible
While being present
to what “is”
Letting it inform
our lives
Shining a spotlight
on what we need to let go of
In order to free us
So the more we long
for can flow through
To want things to
be different
Other than they are
Is natural
AND
To choose to find a
way to let go
To accept what is
Releases the tension
of the opposites
And this is divine
Tapping into our
higher wisdom
Freeing us
Untethering us
Bringing us into
present time
More alive
Through the
integration
Of past, present
and future
In the infinity of
life
Carrying an abiding
THANK YOU! in our heart
As we see clearly
It ALL led us here.
We
are unaware, often unconscious of our resistance, our part in keeping the life
we desire from coming to be. Knowing
this, we must have compassion for our Self and for others on this human
journey. Each of us knows what we know
and our depth of knowing increases day by day until our last breath. No one consciously chooses the shitty things
that life brings and I believe with all of my heart that we can’t keep the pain
of life away no matter how conscious we are.
Pain is as essential as joy.
All
of us have had our asses handed to us in one way or another. The betrayals and violations from the past
threaten to hijack our now if we let
them, if we don’t recognize that we need to acknowledge and grieve them in
order to untether our Self and energy from them. I have said for years that you have to start
with Fu%# it! Fu#% this! Fu#% that in order to get to Bless it! Bless
this! Bless that! So when I live
with an abiding THANK YOU! in my
heart now it has only been made possible through going there where I didn’t want to go and avoided for years. This
abiding thank you! has been birthed
from allowing my Self to go into the raw, untamed, wild, not politically
correct, truth of my emotions around events that have shattered me and broken
my heart. Pretending it’s all good! saying this or other
platitudes while repressing and denying the wounds that bind us keeps the
abundance, the pure goodness of life from flowing through us and manifesting in
the material world.
If
we are less than grateful for the gift of this life, we must examine, shine a
light on what beliefs, what attitudes, what things we have avoided that rob us
from the aliveness available. Each
moment informs bringing opportunities to see
how our choices, attitudes and beliefs create the life we live. Staying tuned in, be willing to look at your
part, own your choices without judgment as this will empower you to see that
you are the captain of your ship and this is indeed your life. You can navigate your life asleep at the
wheel or with eyes wide open, navigating whatever comes, knowing you can find a
way to get where you want to go. You can
lock life out, shutting off the flow, believing that you are a victim of life’s
unfairness or you can become the victor, the hero in your own story.
The
invitation this day is to pause and take inventory, appreciating your Self –
all that you are and own the gift that is you.
Writing it out is a grounding practice and allows you to reread it
sipping in all that you are and reading again and again when you forget. From this place of thanksgiving, seeing how
wonderful it is to be you and what a privilege it is to journey this life as you,
you will appreciate others and life at a depth unparalleled. You will carry an abiding thank you! in your heart not denying the
crappy things or wallowing them rather accepting what comes and looking for
what it has to show you and teach you in order to free more of you to come out
and play.